The Paper Boat

The clouds looked menacing in the distance. The hills that normally looked like blue sentinels guarding the bustling city of Guwahati were already hazy, meaning that the rain had begun there. The needle of the odometer of my trusted bike edged towards the 90 mark as I raced against the clouds and hence the rain, hoping to make it to my home before the rains caught up with me – more so because when it rains in Guwahati, it pours, for days, sometimes weeks.

My earliest memory of the monsoons is that of making paper boats and placing them gently on the puddles outside my home. We used to live in a small town called Bongaigaon then as my Dad was posted there. A really small town a couple of hundred kilometres away from the capital city of Guwahati, its only claim to fame being home to a huge tea estate and, later on, the hub of most Bodo insurgencies.

Many an afternoon had been spent egging the boats to make it to the other side of the puddle which was wide enough more me not to be able to jump across it at that early age of 4. I also remember the snails that would come out in the open, the sound of the toads that would croak for the whole night, for consecutive nights in the nearby marsh, and the horde of insects and other living forms that would come to life after the rains.

That was two decades ago. As I remember those days, the pictures in my memory look like snapshots from another age, a black and white movie of Satyajit Ray perhaps. Last year, I was driving from my birth place in Assam to Guwahati after meeting my ageing paternal uncles and aunts – a distance of 300 kilometres. Something on the way made me take a small diversion of 30 kilometres that took me to Bongaigaon. My first visit to the place where my initial years were spent in 15 years. Like everything and everyone around us, the place had changed as well. All the roads were paved now, and a great deal wider. The people seemed to walk on the roads with a purpose. A number of new shops had come up. And yeah!! It wasn’t raining. I drove slowly through the street on which the house was where I used to stay. It was shut down, and the small field in front of it looked like it had not seen a trim in six months. I stepped out of the car, opened the iron gate and gingerly made my way through the field, careful not to step on any snakes or scorpions. Even though the walls and the doors could do with a fresh coat of paint, I could see that the landlord had changed the colours – from green walls and blue doors & windows to light yellow walls and brown doors & windows, which meant that my chalk drawings on one of the doors was gone for ever. Suddenly I felt a sting at the back of my eye balls and could see my vision blurring. I knew that this was probably the last time I was standing there. I was about to leave in a few days for my MBA course to begin and I knew that my career would take me places, but Bongaigaon certainly didn’t figure in that list of places. I wondered about my little friends – with whom I used to play in that very field – where must they be now.

I got back into the car but still kept thinking of those friends. And of all the friends that I have made since then. Not been in touch with many of them since years. Is life really like a train journey and friends just co-passengers who get down at their destinations, never to be seen again? Gripping the wheel, I gazed into the distance lost in such thoughts when suddenly, without warning, the heavens opened up. And something made me make a paper boat using the photocopy of the car insurance. I still have that paper boat with me, it reminds me of that unplanned trip into memory that June afternoon in 2006.